Regular followers of this blog will know I've had many health issues I've had to face these past few years. Well, I'm ill again, hence the lack of posting here.
I am anaemic and have just been diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. Not sure how I feel, I was told last week it was highly likely, but today the diagnosis is official.
I feel quite numb, my Dad was a diabetic and in the end complications of that killed him. I guess it's been praying on my mind since last week and I've been stressing about that.
I have to see the specialist nurse on Friday for medication etc and I feel like I've been given a death sentence at the moment.
Wednesday, 10 October 2012
Friday, 7 September 2012
Life
Life is hectic, sometimes in a good way, sometimes in a bad way. There have been many issues to deal with this summer, again, making me so disillusioned.
Today I looked out of my window and the beauty of life, flaws and all, just floored me. I am so grateful for so much, even when the bad stuff threatens to overshadow the beauty that surrounds me.
Life can be very cruel, but life can be so positively beautiful too.
Today I looked out of my window and the beauty of life, flaws and all, just floored me. I am so grateful for so much, even when the bad stuff threatens to overshadow the beauty that surrounds me.
Life can be very cruel, but life can be so positively beautiful too.
Wednesday, 8 August 2012
Keeping up with the neighbours.
Actually, this is something I won't do. Here in Cumbria we have had so much rain during June and July that everything has grown so much. Don't get me wrong, the garden isn't wild, just well grown. The grass gets cut once a week, weather permitting. The trouble is , next door is cutting her grass so much and weeding and sweeping. She cut her grass last Wednesday, then again on Saturday and she's at it again now.
This is making the Mr. Twitchy and he wants our garden titivated. He's never been much of a gardner but her antics have made him feel inadequate.
I've included a pic of her grass to demonstrate my point.
These are the same neighbours who ripped out bushes and tress and flower beds when they moved in. Replacing them with turfed lawns that she demands to be mowed three times a week, and I'd he won't, she will. She complains too if the neighbours on either side, is being one lot, don't mow their lawns.
My lawn gets done once a week. I am not a believer in having it cut to within an inch of its life every few days, I feel once a week is sufficient.
This is making the Mr. Twitchy and he wants our garden titivated. He's never been much of a gardner but her antics have made him feel inadequate.
I've included a pic of her grass to demonstrate my point.
These are the same neighbours who ripped out bushes and tress and flower beds when they moved in. Replacing them with turfed lawns that she demands to be mowed three times a week, and I'd he won't, she will. She complains too if the neighbours on either side, is being one lot, don't mow their lawns.
My lawn gets done once a week. I am not a believer in having it cut to within an inch of its life every few days, I feel once a week is sufficient.
Monday, 6 August 2012
Lessons
A whole ago both my daughters moved in with their men. DD1 lives 40 miles away and was visiting this weekend. As she doesn't drive, or have much money we drive her back when she comes visiting.
Taking her home today was fraught with travel chaos - typical Mercury Retrogade - and as I cussed at yet another slow coach I wondered just what lesson I was supposed to learn from this.
Our journey should have taken around 45 minutes, it took double that. The journey back started off a lot quicker, but about half way home we got stuck behind more slow drivers.
It's hard to think what I should take from that journey, but I'm sure there'll be something I am supposed to discover.
Perhaps I need to learn to be patient.
Taking her home today was fraught with travel chaos - typical Mercury Retrogade - and as I cussed at yet another slow coach I wondered just what lesson I was supposed to learn from this.
Our journey should have taken around 45 minutes, it took double that. The journey back started off a lot quicker, but about half way home we got stuck behind more slow drivers.
It's hard to think what I should take from that journey, but I'm sure there'll be something I am supposed to discover.
Perhaps I need to learn to be patient.
Wednesday, 1 August 2012
Lammas Bleasings.
Happy first harvest. It's time to start taking stock of our year so far, count our blessings and sort the wheat from the chaff.
Wednesday, 18 July 2012
Lammas is fast approaching, summer, what's that? Seriously though, it seems strange to be preparing for the first harvest festival, the first inkling of Autumn, when we have yet to feel summer's golden warmth caress us.
The experts tell us that the Jet Stream is beginning to move up - something that it usually does in spring/early summer. Once it does move up over the UK the weather should become more settled.
During its journey we can experience quite unsettled weather, rain, wind, typical spring/autumn like weather.
With this summer's record breaking wet weather the subject of Global Warming and who is responsible has reared its head once more. I have always been in the camp that believes that GW is a naturally occurring phenomena, just as it has done in the past. I am certainly no expert in this field but I have always felt that the earth would be warming up, with or without us humans.
That said, I am strongly against anything that is harmful to the planet - quite contradictory, I know - and am strongly in favour of doing all I can to minimise my impact here.
Makes me sound hypocritical, I know, but I have always felt that the politicians and the scientists have milked the GW topic for all they could. The scientists get obscene amounts of money to fund their research, so they are certainly going to want us all to believe in the GW effect. As for the politicians, well they will do or say anything to curry favour with the voters, so if that meant jumping on the GW bandwagon, so be it. Most of them will have gas guzzling cars, buy the best of everything just because they can, not because they absolutely have to and waste more money, food and resources than the rest of us. If we are becoming jaded over the whole GW concept, is it any wonder?
But recently I have been wondering if my thinking is right. Are we, mankind, responsible for what is going on weather wise, or is it naturally occurring? It is quite alarming to see the pictures of the floods, worldwide, not just in the UK. Then there is the extreme heat in the US, all seems crazy. Are we responsible?
Things do seem to be getting worse on the natural disaster front; recently my husband and I were discussing the increase in earthquakes that occurred last year, and now the floods all over the world. You cannot help but wonder if mother nature is striking back at us mere mortals for all we have done, or if this kind of thing would have happened anyway.
It's difficult to have an impartial viewpoint either way. In the meantime I go about my life, trying my best to be as green as I can, doing my best not to damage the earth as I go about my life. I guess if we all had that mentality we would discover just what kind of impact we have had. GW is a moot topic, we can't really prove either way what has gone before us. So my philosophy of living my life in the greenest, most caring way I can is all I can do right now. If we teach our children to respect the earth, its inhabitants, its resources, then we are doing the best we can. People mistrust the GW concept because of the scientists and their obscene budgets, because of the politicians and their hypocritical messages, so it is up to us to educate our children to be kind and gentle with the earth. Maybe then will we truly understand what is happening, when science isn't begging for obscene amounts of money into funding, when politicians aren't cosying themselves up to us, but when we all act in a respectful manner towards the earth. Until then GW remains a moot subject and extreme weather and natural disasters rage on around us.
The experts tell us that the Jet Stream is beginning to move up - something that it usually does in spring/early summer. Once it does move up over the UK the weather should become more settled.
During its journey we can experience quite unsettled weather, rain, wind, typical spring/autumn like weather.
With this summer's record breaking wet weather the subject of Global Warming and who is responsible has reared its head once more. I have always been in the camp that believes that GW is a naturally occurring phenomena, just as it has done in the past. I am certainly no expert in this field but I have always felt that the earth would be warming up, with or without us humans.
That said, I am strongly against anything that is harmful to the planet - quite contradictory, I know - and am strongly in favour of doing all I can to minimise my impact here.
Makes me sound hypocritical, I know, but I have always felt that the politicians and the scientists have milked the GW topic for all they could. The scientists get obscene amounts of money to fund their research, so they are certainly going to want us all to believe in the GW effect. As for the politicians, well they will do or say anything to curry favour with the voters, so if that meant jumping on the GW bandwagon, so be it. Most of them will have gas guzzling cars, buy the best of everything just because they can, not because they absolutely have to and waste more money, food and resources than the rest of us. If we are becoming jaded over the whole GW concept, is it any wonder?
But recently I have been wondering if my thinking is right. Are we, mankind, responsible for what is going on weather wise, or is it naturally occurring? It is quite alarming to see the pictures of the floods, worldwide, not just in the UK. Then there is the extreme heat in the US, all seems crazy. Are we responsible?
Things do seem to be getting worse on the natural disaster front; recently my husband and I were discussing the increase in earthquakes that occurred last year, and now the floods all over the world. You cannot help but wonder if mother nature is striking back at us mere mortals for all we have done, or if this kind of thing would have happened anyway.
It's difficult to have an impartial viewpoint either way. In the meantime I go about my life, trying my best to be as green as I can, doing my best not to damage the earth as I go about my life. I guess if we all had that mentality we would discover just what kind of impact we have had. GW is a moot topic, we can't really prove either way what has gone before us. So my philosophy of living my life in the greenest, most caring way I can is all I can do right now. If we teach our children to respect the earth, its inhabitants, its resources, then we are doing the best we can. People mistrust the GW concept because of the scientists and their obscene budgets, because of the politicians and their hypocritical messages, so it is up to us to educate our children to be kind and gentle with the earth. Maybe then will we truly understand what is happening, when science isn't begging for obscene amounts of money into funding, when politicians aren't cosying themselves up to us, but when we all act in a respectful manner towards the earth. Until then GW remains a moot subject and extreme weather and natural disasters rage on around us.
Monday, 16 July 2012
Sorting life out
I seem to be on a never ending cycle of sorting my life out. At this moment in time I am very disillusioned with a lot of things that I once held dear - certain people on FB/twitter/forums etc, having to do things a certain way, belief in certain things......
I have spent very little time online in recent weeks because I feel a lot of troubles and distractions are caused by certain things on certain social media sites. Don't get me wrong, I love these sites as much as the next person, but certain groups of people seem to have an uncanny knack of sucking the very life out of you and leaving you feeling so disillusioned. I decided to delete said people but have not really spent much time on FB since.
Besides, my blahness with life seems to be in every area of my life and not just confined to snarky mares on FB. I think the weather plays a huge part in it too. I love weather, the extremes of weather, everything about weather. But in Cumbria it has rained almost everyday since early June, we have had the occasional dry day with sun, but largely it has rained and rained and rained. We have been on flood alert quite a few times, with June 23rd being the worst when we were almost flooded.
There is such an air of despondency all around me, mainly brought on by the lack of sunshine, it's no wonder I feel so blah and meh. I do like rain, but when it has been never ending even I get sick of it.
I was supposed to be going to counselling but I decided against that. After my initial consultation way back at the beginning of June my next appointment was July 11th. I cancelled. I was able to work on myself, using Reiki and self help techniques which have helped enormously with the problems I was having. I think it is shocking that it took a few weeks to have my initial consultation and then a further five weeks for my second appointment. I gave my place up on the programme for someone who needed it more, we should never have to wait this long for help.
Mercury went retrograde yesterday, until August 15th - I think. In the run up to this weekend the communication problems we have been experiencing have been pretty bad, leaving me wondering just how bumpy the ride is going to be.
I am pleased to say that staying off FB etc, working on my problems and trying not to get the wet weather get me down has really helped me focus. Hopefully this time I will have learnt what I am supposed to and won't have to go over this stuff again.
I have spent very little time online in recent weeks because I feel a lot of troubles and distractions are caused by certain things on certain social media sites. Don't get me wrong, I love these sites as much as the next person, but certain groups of people seem to have an uncanny knack of sucking the very life out of you and leaving you feeling so disillusioned. I decided to delete said people but have not really spent much time on FB since.
Besides, my blahness with life seems to be in every area of my life and not just confined to snarky mares on FB. I think the weather plays a huge part in it too. I love weather, the extremes of weather, everything about weather. But in Cumbria it has rained almost everyday since early June, we have had the occasional dry day with sun, but largely it has rained and rained and rained. We have been on flood alert quite a few times, with June 23rd being the worst when we were almost flooded.
There is such an air of despondency all around me, mainly brought on by the lack of sunshine, it's no wonder I feel so blah and meh. I do like rain, but when it has been never ending even I get sick of it.
I was supposed to be going to counselling but I decided against that. After my initial consultation way back at the beginning of June my next appointment was July 11th. I cancelled. I was able to work on myself, using Reiki and self help techniques which have helped enormously with the problems I was having. I think it is shocking that it took a few weeks to have my initial consultation and then a further five weeks for my second appointment. I gave my place up on the programme for someone who needed it more, we should never have to wait this long for help.
Mercury went retrograde yesterday, until August 15th - I think. In the run up to this weekend the communication problems we have been experiencing have been pretty bad, leaving me wondering just how bumpy the ride is going to be.
I am pleased to say that staying off FB etc, working on my problems and trying not to get the wet weather get me down has really helped me focus. Hopefully this time I will have learnt what I am supposed to and won't have to go over this stuff again.
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